JK I'M LATE BY 1 DAY NOOOO
So it's yearly reflection time
tbh 2017 felt soooooooo damn fast couldn't even keep track of the events
lets see summary of 2017,
-ehdp
-hall frenz
-ISSAC'S WEDDING (CONGRATS BRO)
-end of y1
-church camp
-Belle's bday
-youth camp-ish
-going to EUROPE FOR THE 1ST TIME
-4TH YEAR ANNIVERSARY WITH BELLYZXZ

and that about sums my year up haha
it has been a pretty chil year i guess
but since y2s1 started I really felt the uni pressure
maybe it's more prominent in my faculty
but nonetheless managed to pull through the sem i guess
was sliiiiiightly disappointed with my results
was hoping i could have got an A but had too many B+ :/
oh well next sem is coming up so gotta look forward!

something really sad I feel through the year was that there were
soooo many times when i wanted to try and go back to God
but I failed cause i was too lazy or preoccupied or
i guess maybe i didn't really wanna go back because it's tiring
or maybe i'm just afraid that if i try to commit i'll fail so might as well don't
man still tryna get over that but i dragged it alllll the way across the year
SO FOR 2018 I WILL REALLY TRY TO PUT AN EFFORT TO GO BACK TO GOD
Not that I was super far away from him it was more like
my spiritual discipline plus relationship with God was going stale
SO I THINK 1 YEAR OF WHATEVER NONSENSE IS ENOUGH
This year I'll turn 23 so it's time that I get my shit together
Time to adult I guess
BUT I REALLY LIKE MY YOUTH MANNNNNNNN I FEEL SO SAD LEAVING IT BEHIND
:((((((((((((((((((((((((
God please help me in this journey amen!

so the year hasn't really been eventful as mentioned above
i'm trying to think what else to say so i could reflect properly
maybe i should do a proper monthly reflection instead so i can sum it up yearly easily haha
but man all i can say is years are becoming more fleeting as they come
it's quite terrifying knowing that so many things will be changing
i mean if i were to look back at this post in 3 years time who knows what changes
would hit me in the face
I guess the only constant really is God so time to go back to him
before i fall too far away :/

Before I go i just wanted to say how much i love and adore everyone who's been with me through the years, especially in my teenage years
you guys really made me who i am today
even those who may not be around so often or at all anymore
tho not much love for you hehe
but THANK YOU to everyone it has been a pleasure
in fact the most(and only) pleasurable growing up experience i've had
i'll always cherish the memories and the emotions and activities we did
i kinda wish we didn't have to grow up but i guess growing up isnt a choice
plus it has its perks like stability and all
but still, i guess it wouldn't be as exciting or adventurous anymore
THEN AGAIN WHO AM I TO SAY
after all anything can change haha but no matter what once again
you guys have been a part of my life and i'll never forget it

signing out of 2017, WELCOME 2018
-sam

NEW YEARS EVE 2016

My last post is coming to be 366 days ago
I say this every year but
I feel like it's some tradition for me to post or write to sum my year up
Somehow I get this warm tingling sensation
It's as if I'm saying goodbye to the year officially
Like closing a chapter of my life
So here goes nothing!

This year started out great with me FINALLY ORDING
and experiencing freedom after 123091 years of oppresion man omg
Army really sux ballz so hard I really hope I never go back AT ALL
But anyways I remember taking a day trip to thailand with my dad and my godbro
it's so funny cause it seems like thailand is my other home
although other stuff happened but more on that later
then there was CNY which was the same as it was the past few years
then came WORKING for my dad LOL
BUT LEGIT JOB THIS TIME not dat part time shiz
It was shag and somehow mentally draining
but it was an experience and I learned afew accounting stuff(sorry noobshiz here)
I keep saying shiz O.O

Anyway then came VIETNAM WOOOHOOOOOOOOO
During the planning process everyone was so blur cause all of us had never been there
we had to meet like 3-4 times to plan it! Crazy as it sounds,
the trip was EVEN CRAZIER! Taking a sleeper bus for the first time
Even staying airbnb for the first time what an experience!
Sapa is beautiful I wanna go back there maybe retire there
but I'd have to build a lift the hills there are siaoooooo
but it's really cooling and without fog/haze the view is
DAMNNNNN MAGNIFICENT ^^
And yeah overall it was a superb experience with mah bros
the 5 of us just seeing vietnam and not to mention being scammed -ahem-

then next was THAILAND AGAIN
But this time with the church peeps lulz
IT was a great experience overall but of course the last few days didn't  turn out so well
I still feel real shitty thinking about it but oh well
I mean I'm at fault anw I should feel like it
BUUUUUUT I'm more or less over it! Really sorry to all the hurt parties tho :/
It did gave me a huge lesson tho!
other than that WE COOKED IN THAILAND
AND SOME LAMEASS HONGKEE SPILT BOILING CURRY ON MY HAND
and me being cool as shit just said "it's cool don't worry"
then GUILT TRIP HIS ASS HAHAHAHAHA

OK NEXT WAS CHURCH CAMP
Which wasn't as fun cause of missing people but nonetheless awesome!
Hope it was an even more awesome experience to those who are new to camp haha
and then it was MISSION TRIP WOOOHOOO
places I went to
1. Ilo Ilo
2. Barbazza
3. Libertad
4. BORACAY FOR RNR LOL
But overall it's really a one of a kind experience and I'm sure I wanna go another one
in the future of course!

Speaking of that, ITS BECAUSE I STARTED MY FIRST YEAR IN UNI
like omg I'm 21 already and since 15 years ago when I enetered primary school
not thinking about uni and everything just having fun everyday and studying
for all the lame major exams but HERE I AM IN THE ONE AND ONLY NUS
It really feels like an achievement and I'm so thankful to God for carrying me this far
I hope I can grow even more and I believe in the potential God has given me!
It may sound arrogant but I really do!
Entering Eusoff hall I met my first few disappointments in a long time
that being rejected by the band and the latest of all NOT GETTING IN THE SOCCER TEAM T.T
But it really made me realised that I'm not that good at all
WHICH IS GOOD because now I know I have to train alot better
Sometimes I get too complacent
Although I may not show it very distinctly or publicly
I do get over my head sometimes and this experience woke me up haha
Anyway that's about it for the year

OH AND I WENT TO US AGAIN AND JAPAN AGAIN HURRAYY
It was an AWESOMEERZXZXZX experience and I can't wait to go again
like really so good I can't explain to you guys
I wish I can take you guys to the places I've been to aaha
Oh wait I guess no one really reads this anyway but IT DOESN'T MATTTER
Then it'll be like a diary to my self for summaries of my years haha
And that brings me to the end of this post!
I hope to find some time to actually read all my previous EOY posts
and actually reflect on them. I might gain some wisdom hehe
but yeah to all out there who happened to chance upon this
hope you enjoyed reading lololol and I hope I happen to be a reader of this
sometime soon too CHEERS EVERYBODY AND HAPPY NEW YEAR

-Sam

HAPPY NEW YEAR 2016!

2015 has been a crazy ass year although pretty boring...
and for some reason,
I always feel like it's a tradition to do a blogpost for NYE
But this year I was pretty busy
Actually I just forgot hehe
BUT I'M POSTING NOW
So a day difference isn't too bad
Wow it's been ages since this blog started
And I can't believe I'm still using this ahaha
This blog has seen me since I was a retarded young child
to a now retarded adult
All my highs and lows
my laughter and cries
my smiles and tears
Damn man thank you blogspot for seeing me through
my pretty damn awesome teenage years
and of course thank GOD for always being there
and to create this platform too haha
AND AFTER ALL THESE YEARS I STILL BLOG
IN THIS FORMAT OF SENTENCES IN BROKEN LINES
Some things never change huh haha


I hope 2016 will be a good year for me
After all I'm going to be 21 this year
I don't really know if I can handle it though
the responsibilities and the independence
I guess it's fair to say I'm a blessed child with lots of assistance
And I'm truly grateful to everything and everyone
who helped me become who I am today
but I think 2016 is gonna be about finding myself
finding out about who I really am and what is my Godly calling
time to see what God's plan for me really is
After 20 years of nurturing me and holding my hand through all the storms
I really hope to find the inspiration and motivation from Him
AND I NEED TO HAVE AN AIM
I found myself pretty aimless in army which of course
it can't really be helped
BUT NOW I'M OUT AND A CIVILIAN OMG
YES GUYS I HAVE REACHED ORD AND AM NOW FREE FROM 2 YEARS OF TORTURE
that deserved one whole line itself ahaha
Seriously though, army has been one shitty pile of shit
Although i admit it thought me many skills and really pushed my mental limit
I have to say that alot of it was unnecessary
Like I could use that 2 years to learn waaaaay more stuff
But then again I might have been lazy to
So army thought me to not be too lazy
BUT REALLY THE LEVEL OF REDUNDANCY IS SKY HIGH
I'm really glad it's over and now I'm given back my life
It's time for me to work with God to see who I really am
and I'm cut out to be



Alright I think that's about enough of my ramblings
Some of my goals for 2016 is to be independant
AND TO ALSO SPEND IMPORTANT ACTUAL DATES WITH BELLE
Like seriously we missed our actual birthdays and our ANNIVERSARY AND CHRISTMAS
so that;ll be one of my goals ahaha
And also I wish to be more socialble like i wasn't in army because
All I had were really lame and childish jokes which were the only things
that really lasted us through
SO NOW IT'S TIME TO GROW UP AND FACE THE ADULT WORLD!
I'm really excited and I hope whoever is reading this is too
And a little bit scared BUT WHO IN THE WORLD ISN'T?!
ALRIGHT now it's time for us to face this year ahead
All he best to everyone of us including you who reads this ^^

peace outttt

Before the year ends, decided to post something here since my last post was in 2013
Thought I would like to keep up the the tradition(?)

2014 has been a freaking big ass roller coaster
So much so that I'm in hospital right now literally haha
Enlisted into army where true hell began
Like really I've never experienced such frustration and reached such emotional levels
In my life :O
But while it gave me a headache, it gave me adventure too
Managed to complete one of the toughest course a NSF can go through
Though the inevitable screw ups and incredibly dumbfounding 'management' of the system
Still makes it more than just a chore or pain in the ass
Nevertheless, got my trusty girlfriend to stick with me haha
She's been with me through so much that I won't even begin to type
Partly cause I'm too lazy
But also the love we share is so precious that
I do not deem it worthy for your eyes O' Reader of this blog
You probably are too bored and somehow decided to stalk me but it's cool
We all have to satisfy that perpetual interest-seeking entity we call mind right?
I feel so smart typing that despite not knowing if I made sense lololol
Still I'm so glad 2014 is gone and in such a short time too!
2015 is gonna be my last year in army so I'm gonna survive the hell out of it!
Cause I have God, my family, Isabelle, BOGD, LAMOS, Churchies, GAY OKAY
And everyone else who has contributed to my life one way or another
Apologies if I do not have the opportunity to pay you back
It's been one heck of a wild son of a balls ride 2014
Out with you and in with 2015
Happy New Year to everyone who follows Gregorian Calenders ^^

-peace outttttttttt 

Damn insecurities can't stop knocking at my door.
I truly hope with all my heart it was a right choice
Just needed to say this out somewhere where no one cares...
well...except for you who's reading this heh Still...
God help me.

First post of 2013 yaaaaay

Well ok I don''t really post much on blog these years anyway
haha take that STALKERS (you know who you are hehehe)

2013 hasn't been a walk in a park...or even a walk at all.
Unlimited jobs, Limited time (Yay for economics!)
Every time I come here to post
the more depressing I'll sound.. o.o
Hah who cares anyway right?

Apathy has been absorbing me from the World lately
Can't recognize a frown or a smile that easily no more
Could be due to the avalanche of tests and shizzzz
But I'm not one to play the blame game...
Hais I feel like just staying in my awesome bubble with my games and all
Life has been demanding as hell since who knows when
I need a break...but it's too selfish to grant me one
I thought CNY was gonna help but turns out I just got fat :o
Mannnnnnn I think I need to go back to my roots...
Who I really am.
Identity loss is another symptom of apathy I guess :O

This post is an emotionless one so whoever reading this, hope you didn't expect much
and I'm too lazy to put this as a warning on top muahahhaa
Hope the next time I pay a visit to this ghostown
I'll come here with joy or anger at the very least

Sleep time peeps <3 >
(why did I put a heart o.o)