JK I'M LATE BY 1 DAY NOOOO
So it's yearly reflection time
tbh 2017 felt soooooooo damn fast couldn't even keep track of the events
lets see summary of 2017,
-ehdp
-hall frenz
-ISSAC'S WEDDING (CONGRATS BRO)
-end of y1
-church camp
-Belle's bday
-youth camp-ish
-going to EUROPE FOR THE 1ST TIME
-4TH YEAR ANNIVERSARY WITH BELLYZXZ

and that about sums my year up haha
it has been a pretty chil year i guess
but since y2s1 started I really felt the uni pressure
maybe it's more prominent in my faculty
but nonetheless managed to pull through the sem i guess
was sliiiiiightly disappointed with my results
was hoping i could have got an A but had too many B+ :/
oh well next sem is coming up so gotta look forward!

something really sad I feel through the year was that there were
soooo many times when i wanted to try and go back to God
but I failed cause i was too lazy or preoccupied or
i guess maybe i didn't really wanna go back because it's tiring
or maybe i'm just afraid that if i try to commit i'll fail so might as well don't
man still tryna get over that but i dragged it alllll the way across the year
SO FOR 2018 I WILL REALLY TRY TO PUT AN EFFORT TO GO BACK TO GOD
Not that I was super far away from him it was more like
my spiritual discipline plus relationship with God was going stale
SO I THINK 1 YEAR OF WHATEVER NONSENSE IS ENOUGH
This year I'll turn 23 so it's time that I get my shit together
Time to adult I guess
BUT I REALLY LIKE MY YOUTH MANNNNNNNN I FEEL SO SAD LEAVING IT BEHIND
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God please help me in this journey amen!

so the year hasn't really been eventful as mentioned above
i'm trying to think what else to say so i could reflect properly
maybe i should do a proper monthly reflection instead so i can sum it up yearly easily haha
but man all i can say is years are becoming more fleeting as they come
it's quite terrifying knowing that so many things will be changing
i mean if i were to look back at this post in 3 years time who knows what changes
would hit me in the face
I guess the only constant really is God so time to go back to him
before i fall too far away :/

Before I go i just wanted to say how much i love and adore everyone who's been with me through the years, especially in my teenage years
you guys really made me who i am today
even those who may not be around so often or at all anymore
tho not much love for you hehe
but THANK YOU to everyone it has been a pleasure
in fact the most(and only) pleasurable growing up experience i've had
i'll always cherish the memories and the emotions and activities we did
i kinda wish we didn't have to grow up but i guess growing up isnt a choice
plus it has its perks like stability and all
but still, i guess it wouldn't be as exciting or adventurous anymore
THEN AGAIN WHO AM I TO SAY
after all anything can change haha but no matter what once again
you guys have been a part of my life and i'll never forget it

signing out of 2017, WELCOME 2018
-sam